The deeper that sorrow carves into your being,the more joy you can contain…. When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy. When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.
I Sometimes Forget That We Are Created For Joy… Love… and Connection….and that it all already exists deep within us all as a Sacred and Divine Birthright.
So it makes perfect sense that the more disconnected I may feel from these deeper parts of myself… the more pain… grief… (and maybe even anger or disassociation) I will feel… and so if/whenever I’m feeling these harder to feel emotions, it helps me to be extra gentle and loving with myself and remember that its not only showing me how extremely tender and delicate my heart really is, but it is also a soft whisper…. and a gentle reminder… and a Soul calling…. back home to myself and a inner pull towards embracing a deeper part of myself on some level that just needs to be Sacredly honored… held… and felt… knowing and feeling within me that I’m not just here to feel the painful and hard emotions.. but that there’s also so much wonder.. beauty… joy… love… and awe that is also here for me to be experienced and felt too..
I love how when I embrace this, it also allows me to feel a deeper truth within me that I cannot feel the depths and pain of one …without also being able to feel the depths and beauty and joy of the other… and in those quiet moments I can really feel how they are both just two sides of the same coin.
And that when the heart is really open, it's a tender bittersweet feeling, like when you see a gorgeous sunrise… or you hold a new born baby in your arms…. it's all just so beautiful that you don't know whether to laugh or to cry. And so we often do both.... that is the raw power and beauty of what it feels like to be a human being on this planet living in the world with an open heart.
So for me it’s so so comforting… beautiful and healing if/when I remember that love…grief… and joy.. all often flow within the same breath…. and it’s s something so so Sacred and Divine~ and part of our wholeness~ it’s not something separate from us.. this is what it feels like to be living whole heartedly in the world - with ALL of our heart.
And so I truly believe with all my heart and Soul that in this beautful thing that we call life, that its our Souls only mission here on this beautful green planet to not only learn how to courageously and fearlessly learn how to live…. and breathe… fully in our lives from this deep space within us.. . but in doing so I can also really feel how it all deeply
cultivates and nurtures loving connection and feelings of belonging… which feels to me is all any of us truly want… and really need. ￼￼ And that this is what it feels like being a true conscious heart centered healer and leader in the world.
I feel like I've been on this often overwhelming painful…raw and hard… yet beautiful...journey of becoming,
as I continue learning how to navigate all the feels and how to be a human being on this planet and embracing deeper learnings of how to bless ￼the things that have broken me down..
and cracked me open…
knowing the world needs me more open. ￼￼
Dear Life, it’s sometimes really really painful and hard
but also so so beautiful here.