I sometimes forget
that I was created for Joy.
My mind is too busy.
My Heart is too heavy
for me to remember
that I have been
called to dance
the Sacred dance of life.
I was created to smile
To be lifted up
And to lift others up.
O’ Sacred One
Untangle my feet
from all that ensnares.
Free my soul.
That we might
and that our dancing
might be contagious.
Did you know that living a joy led life
leads us to a life
we are all born to live?
And that we are all worthy of joy?
Did you know that it is not only waiting for us
but it also LIVES in ALL of us and it is available for us all as our Sacred and Divine birthright?
And did you know that our JOY is something so so Sacred and Divine and part of our wholeness not something separate from us?
Did you also know that your level of joy you embody and connect with day to day literally sends not only ripples BUT waves of joy out into our life and also the world?
And that is a huge healing gift you offer yourself and the world every single time you tune into this deepest part of you?
And that consciously choosing to access
the joy of your Soul within every moment
and choose it over and over again over your ego who feeds us with fear and doubt will absolutely lead to more joy and more love in your life?
AND that the opposite is also true?
What do you do that feeds your fear?
Did you know that is where we will find our ego every single time?
I am wondering what do you do to nourish your Soul?
Knowing that is also where we will find my joy every single time?
We don't need much to tune into our joy
none of us really do
Did you know that it is often the
simplest things in life
that bring us the most joy?
For me I love to
sit in the sun in my backyard
read a Soul soothing nourish book
listen to the birds
go for a walk on the beach
quiet time to tune into my inner self
have a conversation with my Soul
Joy is not in things
Joy is in us!
It already exists deep inside of us
How can you choose Joy today?
What are you grateful for today?
I Am Grateful For
the beauty that is all around me
the warmth of the ocean breeze
the blue sky
the palm trees
peace and serenity
simple things that feel so nourishing to my Soul
my sanctuary in my back yard
walks on the beach
walks in the woods
green lushness all around me
flowers and the bees in my garden
my mentors and teachers
Many dont know that I did not come to this place from living a life full of rainbows and sunshine
Far from it actually
My healing path back to joy
emerged from many devastating
and difficult life challenges along the way
and in their midst
and more joyful version of myself
the me that I love the most
the me that I remember when I was younger before life got real
Here are just a handful of the challenges that I have faced
*I came in as an extremely sensitive Soul who was painfully shy
Life got very real once I reached junior high school
without going into the gory details
I struggled and suffering deeply
from extreme family dysfunction disorder
and inner torment for many years
this initiation led me into a deep dark path
of my inner journey
of transformation and healing
back to the light and the joy
that always existed within me
and what I learned had always been there for me
inside of me all along
*As a young child I began to watch the light in my sisters beautiful hazel eyes slowly and gradually disappear as she has battled her own inner demons and the ravages of being another deeply sensitive Soul growing up in a cruel scary world that continue on to this day almost 50 years later
*I watched my niece and my nephew
who are like the children I never had
but always wanted
grow up in a household with two parents
who suffer from severe substance use disorder just trying to get by and cope with their own stuff and watching the after effects and damage it caused two beautiful innocent and loving children
*In 2014 my mother and I survived
a shocking and devastating house fire where we lost virtually everything we had
We were so blessed
to have all survived animals included
and lived in a hotel for one year
while our home and our life was rebuilt
*I watched my 68 year old father
go into the hospital for a routine back surgery where the doctors guaranteed
he would be in less pain
and be able to walk
with more comfort and ease
After that day NEVER walk again
and live bedridden in a nursing home
for the last 12 years of his life
*I had to finally say goodbye
to my father over the phone
after he spent the last year of his life in isolation with no visitors allowed
after surviving the first 11 months of the pandemic he was admitted into ICU in the hospital
for pneumonia during the end of the pandemic where they were still placing people in solitary confinement with no visitors allowed
where once an hour
the nurses would just run in for less than a minute just to check on him
and they would run back out
only to be admitted into hospice just 2 weeks later under the same circumstance
and die all alone
in a cold heartless sterile room
all by himself
*I have watched my mother grieve and be forced to navigate more grief and loss than any one person should ever have to go through
For the most part I live a happy full life now because I was forced deep onto my personally healing journey that set my Soul free to be able to find my joy again even if someone around me is suffering
I have had to learn how to distinguish and how to tell the difference between the voice of my ego and the voice of pain, suffering, grief, overwhelm to the point of feeing like collapsing over and over again and rather consciously choose to turn my ears towards listening to Spirits voice and the voice of my Soul
I have had to ask myself over and over again
Is this my ego or my Soul
Is this how would my ego would respond?
How would my spirit... my Soul respond?
How can I see my ego and see what its doing to keep me from my joy
that lives and breathes in me
that is my natural state of being?
And what can I do to put my Soul in charge?
What would my Soul say to me right now?
How can I allow my joy to breathe new life in me in this moment no matter what is going on around me?